It won't be like this for long

After work, I picked up Bug and we went to our favorite place, Target. Mommy shops while she gets a kids cookie, but she wasn't in the greatest mood. It was a long exhausting day for her, she played hard that day with a short nap.

As we're standing in line, Bug starts crying, arching her back, and yelling. I feel my face get red as the man in front of me looks at me and smiles. I can't help but think what these people may be thinking of me. Do they think I'm a bad mom? Do they think I can't control my child? Do they think she is a brat? We stood there in line for what seemed like 15 minutes. 

After checking out, we walk towards the car, barely pushing the cart because I'm trying to hold Bug and calm her down, I strap her into her car seat while she cries and yells. I shut the door and take a deep breath, trying to enjoy the silence before the drive home.

I get in the car and start to drive off, she continues to cry and then I hear silence. I look back and she says "Hold my hand mommy" and it made me realize this is a phase and it won't be like this for long. The tantrums, the crying, the always wanting mommy, the rub my leg before I go to bed and the pull over on the side of the road to see the cows. 

I've never fully embraced tantrums until now, I realize she isn't giving me a hard time, she's having a hard time and this too will fly by. 

I'll do anything for you, even if that means holding your hand the entire drive home while my arm falls asleep.